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I'm not a person who suffers from depression but lately I just can't seem to shake the blues. I just want to hide under the covers and cry all day long. The slightest thing will set me off and nothing I do makes me feel better. I think its probably because I am pregnant, working two jobs, didn't get the promotion, sick with a cold, and its dark when I go to work and dark when I get home and cold outside. I have my sonogram today too so I am anxious hoping the baby will be healthy.

Do you ever suffer from the blues and how did you get through it? Bless Nate. He brought me flowers and chocolate yesterday.

How sweet of Nate!

I'm so sorry you're feeling bad Kristin. I have these bouts from time to time. And I'm generally a positive person too. But it just seems like sometimes the pressure of the kids and (used to be the commute) and our finances and being stuck at the house and the state of the world just build up and it hurts inside. I haven't ever had it last more than a week or so, but it really sucks. I have to turn off the news and cry it out. Micah is very supportive too and he tries to let me have some time alone to just cry it out.

Oh Kristin, I'm very sorry you're feeling that way. I did some as well when I was pregnant -- it's all those hormones! Mention it to your OB today. She may be able to offer some tips on things that might lift your spirits. And flowers and chocolates? You have a great hubby!

Let us know about the sonogram!!!

Kristin, you're definitely not alone...Saturday was my day for feeling that way (could ya tell)?

I agree that it may be pregnancy hormones, that and the change in time and weather...some people are affected that way by colder, shorter days and long, cold nights.

I wouldn't worry about it too much unless it hangs on much longer than a week or so, and do mention it your dr. like Sarah said. Take very good care of yourself, and don't ever hesitate to ask for an ear to listen and care!

Kristin, I am sad to hear you are feeling so out of sorts and down when you already have a full plate! I went thru full blown depression while PG with Zane and am still fighting it now so please, don't try and deal on your own if things don't improve soon, it may take you a lot longer than you think. I tried meds (after PG), talking it out (still doing that on many days ) writing a journal, it has been SO hard and you are fortunate to have a hubby who seems to 'get it' and tries to help. It is rough to deal with everything at once and you surely feel like you have to be the one to handle it all, I know I do. The time change is not helping nor does the news with the constant bad/evil/economy fallout/loss of jobs and homes - its enough to depress anyone, let alone anyone with hormone fluctuations! Have a good cry for no reason at all, it does help. I can't tell you how I beat it because in truth, it beat me. It seems you have a lot of people here who are nearby and can maybe offer an ear, a shoulder or even maybe a night off from "mom duty" so you can have some full on "me" time and maybe that would be good for you too. And it sounds like Nate is being helpful in the only way he knows, but tell him directly if there is something else you need him to do. We kind of forget that the men aren't psychic and cannot read our moods or minds so we have to give them some input so they can help too.

Keep talking to your OB as well, maybe they can help. Feel better!

Oh Kristin! I'm so sorry to hear about the promotion. I know you must be completely bummed. Let me know if I can do anything to cheer you up...garage sales anyone??

Well I got sent home from work today. Too upset to work. THe sonogram didn't go so great. The tech kept asking me when I'm going to see the doctor again. She didn't say everything looks fine. In fact, she said they'll need to do another sonogram to get a better look at the heart. And um, I should have waited to hear the sex but I thought it might get some good news to lift me out of this funk but its another girl. and I can't say, "Oh well, at least its healthy" cause I don't know that for sure.

and I know a lot of people can't have children and I am lucky to even be pregnant but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't disappointed. I really wanted a little boy.

Keep us updated Kristin! I'll be thinking about you!

We will keep you and your family in our thoughts.

hmmmm you see Amy Million right?? Didn't they do the sonogram there at the office?? If I were you I would call Dr Million tomorrow first thing and see if she can settle your mind. Shame on them for worrying you and Nate like that. The tech should have explained things more to you so you at least knew what they were thinking...like why they wanted a better look at the heart and such.

As for your third being another girl, I guess you are like me and you only do girls...I was hoping for a boy the last time around too but now that I have Gracie she is all I ever wanted and more!!

Keep us updated Kristin...we are all here for you...

I have days (sometimes more than one in a row) when it feels nothing is going right and I feel, not so much depressed, but just totally and utterly overwhelmed! I feel like I cannot deal if one more person (work, kids, family, friends, make one more demand/request/suggestion etc. I often wonder what would happen if I just took off and did not come back for a few days-would everyone survive? I feel like so many people count on me and I cannot take a minute to attend to any need I may have-even if it is to just close my eyes for a minute to rest. I am up all hours of the day and night working (work, kids not sleeping, cleaning the house, planning the holidays ugh!!!!!! It is very hard. Hang in there-I have noticed that I can go from the end of the rope to being so happy and grateful for all of my fortunes. I think it is hormonal. I get through w/ a few tricks- 1) call a dear friend and just laugh my head off at her crazy life/stories 2) take a hot bath-w/ the door locked and the exhaust fan on to block out the sounds of kids etc. 3) walk outside alone and think about myself as an old woman all alone-kids gone etc. and I walk back into my crazy busy life with an added appreciation for everything that was just driving me nuts! I find putting it all in perspective really helps. This too shell pass!

p.s the sonograms drove me nuts! W/ baby #1, I was told “all looks good we will call you if there is a problem”. Later I called to check my home messages (from work) and heard this "Please call us right away, we need to take another sonogram". I got the message after the office closed early on a Friday-I spent all weekend convinced something was horribly wrong! I called first thing Monday and am told "oh so sorry to alarm you, we could not get a good look at his lungs and need to get a more clear pic of his lungs". Of course, all was well w/ his lungs!

W/ #2, I was 35 years old and was told by the doc to get an amnio-since I declined the triple screen test for downs as it is not accurate and I would not have aborted anyway-so why take the test right? Well, the doc scared me into the amnio-at the last minute I said no-did not want to take the small chance of miscarriage etc. At the sonogram she said "everything seems ok, I cannot tell for sure w/o an amnio though". So I spent the rest of the pregnancy convincing myself I made the right decision not to have it etc.

There is always something to worry about! You have two beautiful daughters and this one will be just as healthy and adorable!

Kristin, I am so sorry you didn't get any peace of mind from your sonogram visit on top of all the other stuff. You know what though, I got the same type of thing and all turned out just fine. Most of them do. I think sometimes it is the angle the baby is lying or maybe the tech just isn't as comfortable with certain readings so please don't stress more about it. Surely if there was an obvious problem, she would have had someone else review the sonogram or insisted you see either your OB or a perinatologist right away. I had to get anmio done for both kids so we were able to know a lot more than a basic sonogram would tell us which was comforting, but during the amnio for Zane, the perinatologist, Dr Angel, said he wanted me to get a follow up ultrasound due to something he saw with the bladder development. Not only was there not a problem, but when Zane came a month early, he didn't have to go into NICU at all because he was perfectly healthy, bladder included. Dr Angel simply said it was something he wanted a better look at to be sure and he was never really worried at all. I realize hearts are more sensitive areas, but I just think if there was a real problem, they would have done more right away.

I agree with Karen and I would call them first thing in the morning just for your peace of mind. Explain all you are going thru and how you just don't need one more thing to worry about and I am sure they will take care of you.

I always thought I would never be a good "girl Mom" but I have to admit, Macy has been much easier than Zane! With a house full of girls, you will be dealing with enough boys in your life....LOL

I know, you wanted what you wanted and nothing any of us can say will change the facts. Just know that you have friends who understand and will listen.

Kristin...it sounds like you are overwhelm with so much. Whether it is the blues or depression, you have to find a way to take care of YOU first. I know! I know! easier said than done.

it almost sounds like you do suffer from depression. honestly, I do too. I journal a lot as Michelle suggested. I also blog. But I do see a therapist too. I need to to keep my sanity! But what you are feeling may be that you are so overwhelmed.

With two jobs, three kids (sorry Nate ) i guess i would be tired too-extremely. Please try to find time to rest. Take a warm bath in a candle lit room and listen to some soft calm music, and drink some nice warm herbal tea. That usually helps me to calm down and relax.

I'm going to PM you my phone number...if u ever want to call to just talk, please don't hesitate to do so.

Know no matter what, we are here for you-to support you.

Lots of safe hugz!

I'm generally a very happy person and have never really felt this way before so I think that's why I am not sure what to do feel better. I'm pretty sure its just situational depression. But I have game plan. I've got to get over this cold for one. I'm not going to work any overtime for awhile and I'm going to have Tuesday-Sunday off next week so I'm really going to rest. I made myself go to horse playdate last weekend and I'm glad I did. It was fun and I enjoyed talking with Jam so I'll probably drag myself out of bed and do Mom's Night Out.

I was really glad to read about your sonogram experiences so that makes me feel better that something isn't necessarily wrong. and Nate going on the internet last night looking up girl names. If he can get on board and not be so upset its not a boy that we can pass on his name too and accept the fact that we're going to have 3 teenage girls PMSing in the house at once, then who am I to whine about it. I had told him I had really bonded with Nate JR and had thought of the baby as NJ. Well, he said he didn't like any of the N names, but how Olivia Jane and we can call her OJ. He's so funny.